Raison d'être

Competition. This was never in my vocabulary.

In school, I was just a simple girl who wants to have fun and experience life as much as I can. I find quiz bee as a game rather than a contest. Maybe that was the rationale behind why I was enjoying it.

Student council. I was always part of it but never was my choice. From MUSE, P.R.O., AUDITOR, TREASURER to VP. *hehehe* I never took it seriously though. Everything was just for fun.

I don’t like any form of pressure. I want things to be “just cool and easy”.

I work to learn, enjoy and be happy. I like to love what I’m doing. I have the passion for anything that interests me. I learn for myself and not to please or compete with anybody nor get credits for it.

DRIVING.I started early because I like it. My Daddy was my guru.
SWIMMING. I got lessons because I love water and not for any race at all.
TYPING. I become skilled at it because of my interest since I was a kid. I often see my Mommy type real fast! I adore her.
COOKING. I had the effort to be good in making pastries because of my sweet tooth.
GADGETS. I’m a true geek!
SKINCARE, COSMETICS AND FASHION. I just love pampering myself to make me feel good.
READING. The book should arouse my interest.
WRITING. Most of the time, my stress-reliever, otherwise, my energy booster.

This list can go on and on...

Bottom line, I do things for myself to make me content and not to please anybody.

I do not like much attention and praises. I do not want to be highlighted by people whenever I made a good job. That makes me very uncomfortable and coy! I am a silent worker and I do my work for myself and not for anybody. I want to experience the ‘sense of achievement’ feeling. I can say that if ever there is this LITTLE ‘competition’ in me it is NEVER against anyone but MYSELF. I always want to improve for the better. I often want to be challenged (but not too much, I don’t want stress!) I guess my left-brain is more active than my right. I’m an analytical person. I love logic and strategies.

Now, I’m starting to feel uncomfortable because of the attention I am getting and somehow (Ok, I know this is wrong…) I feel not working anymore. I want them to see me NOT doing my best. So, the attention can be diverted to others. I don’t want management to believe in me TOO MUCH. I want my life to be simple and uncomplicated. I don’t want to be in the limelight. I know I need to overcome this. Soon…

HAPPINESS.

Hmmm…on a lighter side, that made me think that I can never join showbiz! *Bwahahaha* Crazy me! ☺

Badger…badger I need you. Zzz…zzz…