Goodbye 2007, Welcome 2008!

I’ve been busy for the past days I don’t even have time to blog. I have so many stories to tell but we are off to the church in a few minutes so, I thought of making a quick post to greet everyone instead…*wink*

Happy New Year!!!

Party hard but stay safe on this last day of the year. This is my last post of 2007.

See you all in 2008!!! ☺☺☺

Quality Time

I just have to make a quick entry, I’m not feeling well. Maybe it’s because of the sudden change in weather. I keep on sneezing, my nose is running and my head is killing me! Oh well…

Anyways, yesterday Xave and I had Christmas dinner in Jack’s Loft Eastwood and it’s nice to have some serious talk from time to time. It’s just so surprising that Xave is more into details and long term planning than me. Something not usual with other guys I know.

I thought of posting this picture of us. Our Xmas photo on our his and her shirts (again). *wink* Our last Xmas as single people.


Let me share some of our discussions. Hmm, we were talking about the uniform and his rules/regulations for the yaya of our soon-to-be babies! My goodness! I have yet to conceive and our wedding is yet to come! *heehee* The TV he wanted to install in my car so our soon-to-be baby can watch Barney (daw). This one really made me laugh out loud! Theme of our soon-to-be house. He wanted to personally be involved in the designing and I’d have to be at the back end I agreed (yes I did!) but insisted of designing our bathroom instead. I have this thing for nice bathrooms and I want ours to have his and her sinks. *wink* That’s it and I can leave everything to him. I know him so well. Everything he plans very well. Unlike me, I’m not good at it.

Today, is pamper day for Xave and myself. We went to the Nail Loft, our new discovery and had a few services. The place is not crowded and there is no disturbing smell that I often experience in California Day and Nail Spa (CANS). The girls are very warm and always have nice smiles on their faces.

We tried the hand and feet paraffin aside from the usual pedi and mani with footspa. We were both flabbergasted when the girls handed us our eye mask with real cucumber. It was soooooo relaxing to the eyes! I had my nails in red while Xave had his favorite footspa with big bubbles. *haha* It’s nice to share moments like this with Xave because I can see that he is really enjoying. I love to make him happy.

As I write this, my BEE is driving himself to Bataan. I’m just waiting for him to arrive in the farm and I can go to sleep.

Gotta go people!

Merry Christmas!!!

This is my last Christmas as a Miss a.k.a. single and I can’t think of any other ways to celebrate today but the usual way. I tried doing something different though...*teehee*

1. Pizza making

Xave and I made pizzas for everyone. The first 2 were hmm, so-so however people who did the taste test liked them. They actually finished them off! *not bad* Though we both know that we can do better. The next 2 I can say outstripped the first batch. We loved it! *smiles* And we call our pizzas, BEEzzas. *wink*


2. Simbang Gabi

A Filipino tradition of going to mass for 9 consecutive mornings starting December 16 originally at 4am however, later on they started having evening anticipated masses for people who couldn't make it in the very early morning (like me).

I was able to complete the Simbang Gabi (2nd time in this life time, I think). I didn’t wish for anything but good health for my love ones. I don’t believe in doing something just for the sake of wish making. I find it so insincere.

3. His and Her

Just for fun, we chose to wear something alike this Christmas. *heehee* Xave chose pink tops and here we are! *wink*


4. Reminiscin’

It’s always nice to look back. Well for one, it makes us grasp the things we have gone though all these years. Second, we become conscious on our future goals and how to reach them and lastly, we get to laugh on old pictures and see the development not only on the way we look but on how we present ourselves. *beams*

We love sharing these fun times with family and friends. It’s not bad to have good laughs from time to time, isn't it? *heehee*

Merry Christmas everyone!

Starbucks Planner 2008

Finally, the most coveted Starbucks planner is now in my hands! *applause* After drowning myself with coffee, Toffee Nut Latte to be specific *yay* it's now here. *smiles*

I can’t wait to doodle! *heehee*

My Christmas pressie for myself. *bow*

4 hours to go…

DELL

It's official.

I’m joining DELL January 2, 2008 but I’m requesting to start on the 7th instead. I feel I need more breathing time.

I’m actually so overwhelmed on how things are going in my life. (read: new job, a wedding, et.al.) No wait, it’s not what you think…I’m happy to get these blessings at the right time. I just have the tendency to be hmm, in panic most of the time if not all the time. *haha* Something I would like to get rid by 2008. *resolutions, as if!* I’ve been wanting to be always in composure. *really huh?*

So! Honestly, I’m having some unwanted feelings and thoughts. Yes, I’m a bit skeptical or maybe the right word to use is worrisome. I’m starting to worry about a lot of things! I don’t know…perhaps I’m having this “fear of the unknown” maybe because new things are on my way and they are happening at the blink of my eye! Or maybe, I just need my usual dose of sugar? Yes, bars of chocolates! *muwahaha*

Umm, power of mind, that’s the best approach to use. Thinking that everything would be fine. *inhale-exhale*

I know that most of you will find me so uncanny. *smiles* I recognize that. I’m whimsical! *beams*

4 days to go ‘till Christmas!

99 days to go!

I had my first fitting of my bridal gown yesterday and I hope that would be my last. They say, it’s not good to fit your wedding gown before your big day. I’m thinking of posting some pictures here, and still thinking…As much as possible I want it to be a surprise for everyone but on a second thought, I want to share it with you. *hahaha* Yes, I’m a baffling bride. *muwahaha*

I was practically in total awe when I saw my reflection in the mirror in my bridal gown. Walking down the aisle hasn’t really sunk in me yet until I saw myself in the pictures taken by Amae.

OMG, I’m actually getting married! *guffaw*

We still have a lot of things to do, most often I feel our checklist is endless as it keeps on adding more things that needs to be done. *slaps forehead* Anyway, I don’t want myself to be buried in stress and pressure. I want this wedding preparation to be enjoyable and memorable for Xave and myself.

Umm so for now, let me share with you the gown design of my Bridesmaids instead. Amae was my first Bridesmaid to go to Edward Teng so the design was customized for her body frame. I hope it fits well with the rest of them.

99 days to go...

Crabby Me!

Last night while flossing, I lost one of my brackets so today I had to get up early (read: 730am) to see my dentist. Still half asleep, I drove myself to Marikina with of course a coffee on hand thinking “I had to be there before 830am or else, Dra. will not accommodate me and I had to go back tomorrow afternoon.” No way! I can’t be running around with a missing bracket, goodness gravy! *hahaha* Luckily, I was at their doorstep 815am!

It was so stressful to be in that chair for 2 hours with my mouth wide-open hearing the #$%^@! irritating instrument that was buzzing my teeth! Argh! I wanted to scream and make her stop. Waaaa!

Now, Im trying to sleep to get away the pain I am feeling (but I can’t sleep!) plus the fact that I am beginning to feel hungry. Oh my, food is one of my weaknesses (I just can’t resist my cravings!) and I’m starting to be cranky. I wanted to hide my face under the sheets, or maybe spank myself to be unconscious for awhile. Geez, my crazy thoughts!

I want NYC grande fries with garlic parmeasan dip! But the traffic is worst and I have yet to take a shower. And that means, I cannot go to Eastwood. Hmm…*thinking of alternatives…* Aha! Ding ding ding! I have to run now, and go to the nearest Potato corner to grab some sour cream fries! I’m drooling!!!

Later!

P.S. Sorry, I’m just not in the mood. When I’m hungry, I’m like this. Forgive me.

Size 5

I’m a frustrated shoe-addict. I’m size 5 and more often than not, I find it hard to come across nice shoes of my size. They are always half inch bigger. *sob* I normally buy my office shoes from Charles and Keith not here but in Singapore. I don’t understand why my size is not available here in Manila. *weird* So everytime I have a chance to visit Singapore, I usually hoard 5 to 7 pairs! It’s also cheaper there, usually less than a thousand pesos per pair and I even have my discount card of 10%. (applies only in Singapore though). Steal!

But being a Virgo, I easily get tired of monotony. I always look for new and different things and shoes-shopping in Manila will remain as my big frustration! Having said all these, I’m still in high hopes and will remain in search for good finds of my size here in the metro. *hopin' & wishin'*

The good side, I can get great finds from the Kids section. *giggles*

See my loot:

Havaianas KIDS
In my favorite color, PINK! The Bugs are movable. (you can place them on top, middle or bottom...wherever you like!)


So cute isn’t it? This style is only available in kids' sizes I got the biggest (kiddie) size which perfectly fits me! *chuckles* Amae wanted to grab one for herself but she's in size 8 and it's just so impossible to get one. *heehee*

I can't believe this is priced at 695 pesos only! A great find indeed!

P.S. Another December celebrant. Happy Birthday Kloe!

3 in a Row

Burp! Ooops! I’m so full again.

Just this week, I’ve been in 3 Persian restaurants:

(1) Uncle Moe’s in City Golf last Wednesday
(2) Mister Kabab in QC last Thursday
(3) Behrouz in Metrowalk tonight

And it will not be this good without my food trip buddy, Mama Maits! *smiles* I feel I’m absorbing her cravings. I’m actually eating more than her! Oh my…I shouldn’t be gaining weight till our big day. No, no, no! I want that dress to perfectly fit me. Please.

I don’t know why I’m loving the Ox brain aside from the Kababs, grilled tomatoes and onions. I just find them soooo appetizing. *yummy*

Oh gosh, enough of these food talk. I don’t wanna be craving of anything at this ungodly hour. Hmm, let me just clear this up…I am not conceiving and it’s Maita who is on the way, okay? *smiles*

On the other note, I have updated our Wedsite (finally!) though I still have some more to add. *heehee* Uploading pictures is making me insane! I’ve also modified my Ticker by the way and it’s cuter this time. *wink*

Check ‘em out!

P.S. Asis is celebrating his birthday today. Happy BEERday Asis!

Some Things JUST Change

I notice, something unusual is happening to me…

Hmm, for the longest time I’ve been wanting to use Pink as our motif. Then, I thought I’ve overly used it already during my debut party. Next level/choice please…

I used to be fascinated with colors and when I say colors, loud and bright colors! And then I like Butterscotch, Tangerine and Fuchsia as our wedding motif. I feel these are the right colors in time for our wedding. Aside from the fact that March is summer time, Xave and I love happy colors. So, why not reflect that on our big day?

Then one day, I had an urge to totally switch to a more elegant and classy tones so that made the Bronze, Gold and Pewter as our FINAL motif. Dark colors for a change. I’m glad our entourage and Xave like it. They say, these colors are easier to use/match and I agree.

Timeless.

P.S. Another good friend is celebrating her birthday today. Happy birthday Cyl! I hope to catch you soon! Miss you girl! *mwah*

Wedding Prep. Updates

What a busy week! Haven’t been online for days and that’s very unusual of me. I’m sure most of my friends are now wondering what’s happening to me to think I quit my job last Monday and in the following days, I am nowhere to find. *heehee*

Here’s the story.

This week was spent doing stuffs for our wedding preparations, which is so long over due now. Xave and I had series of meetings with suppliers to finalized everything and talk about further details.

1. Angelswink Production (AWP) and Paulo Clemente

Officially, we got AWP as our wedding coordinator and we decided to get the Gold package and Paulo Clemente as our wedding singer in the ceremony and reception and event host as well. We can’t wait to hear him sing LIVE on my Bridal/Bride's March and Groom’s March. Yes, you read it right…Xave will be doing his own march which is something new and getting popular nowadays! *wink* He might have a Groom’s cake as well. *double wink* I don’t want our wedding to be focused on me alone, I want Xave to feel extra special too. *heehee*

website: www.angelswink.biz

2. Lito Genilo of SmartShot Studio

We discussed the concept for our Pre-Nup pictorial. He wanted us to do the ‘Trash the Dress’ concept but Xave and I feel that it’s not appropriate with our personalities. It’s not us. I’m not so into kissing and very sexy pictorials. The thought alone is giving me shivers. We prefer something candid, natural and spontaneous. Well, let’s just wait on what will be the outcome soon.

website: www.smartshotstudio.com


3. Edward Teng

Finally, my Matrons of Honor had the time to visit our couturier. I’m so elated with the designs Tito Edward did for Maita and Tricia. I’m so looking forward on seeing them in their very beautiful gowns.

website: www.edwardteng.com/index.htm

Here are some of the pictures taken today:

Edward Teng doing the on-the-spot sketches for Tricia and Maita (Matron of Honor)


Picking the right colors and combinations


Finishing touches


Maita truly, madly, deeply in-love with her gown design


Up close...Maita's gown design


Tricia's love at first sight and can't wait for the 1st fitting of her gown

Up close...Tricia's gown design


Tito Edward Teng and myself with my wedding gown sketch that we stole from the production team just to have this picture taken *heehee*


As much as possible, I don’t want to post pictures of my wedding gown here. I want it to be a surprise to everyone. But because of the requests, *thinking…* Ok, I will have a separate entry for my wedding gown SOON. My first fitting will be in December 20. I will take pictures for you guys to see, PROMISE! I will TRY to talk details of it as well. *wink*

Excited? I am.

Well, that's all for now. More updates pretty soon...watch this space and our WEDSITE.

P.S. Happy Birthday to my dear brother, Timothy and my fellow mugger, Rina R. Wish you guys more birthdays to come! Take care.

Soon-to-be Parents

On a Wednesday morning 8:44am to be exact, Xave and I together with the rest of other friends got a message from someone and I quote: "I'm gonna be a daddy soon. Yahoo!"

It was a big surprise that the message came from one of our closest friend, Robert. Personally, I can feel the happiness in him. A very proud soon-to-be-Dad.

Congratulations to Daddy Bert and Mama Maits!

I think this says it all!

Based from the Chinese Calendar, they are having a baby boy. Let's see how accurate it can be...

Maita, have a safe pregnancy. Stay healthy and beautiful. *smiles*

Bert, take care of Maita and we all know you will. She’s the queen of your heart and your prince in on the way. *wink* We and your friends are just here as the two of you take another chapter of your married life.

Again, CONGRATULATIONS!

Photo taken the day before they found out that Maita is "on the way"

Maita, now 2 weeks pregnant.

Meet Roselyn

Since her father died last year, Roselyn, 12, had to help her mother earn so they could eat everyday. This means working nonstop for 6 hours in the mangroves to gather oysters (talaba) in a remote Aklan town. Without money to spare for a pair of slippers, Roselyn often gets cuts on the soles of her feet standing on beds of oysters barefoot while harvesting them, making it painful for her to walk the 4 km to and from school. As much as she loves going to school everyday, there are times when she is forced to stay at home because of this.

You can help Roselyn and others like her to have a bright future. Send a poor Filipino child to school and help him or her get out of poverty.

It takes so little to make a big diffrence in a child's life.By sponsoring a child, YOU can bring lasting and positive changes, not only to the child, but to his family and community as well.

YOU CAN HELP CHANGE THEIR LIVES. YOU CAN GIVE THEM A CHANCE TO FINALLY HAVE A BETTER AND BRIGHTER FUTURE.

source: World Vision

Call World Vision now.


Websites: http://www.worldvision.org (outside Philippines)
http://www.worldvision.org.ph (within in Philippines)

Telephone number: +632-3727777 (within Philippines)

World Vision

In 2004, I first saw World Vision in a billboard somewhere in EDSA. From there, I never stopped searching for them. I’ve wanted to sponsor a child for the simple reason that I want to help build life of a child. Surprisingly, one day I bumped into their booth in one of the top malls in Manila and I didn’t leave without a sponsor child in hand. Whatever blessings I get, I try my best for pay it foward.

I wanted to somehow monitor the growing years of a child so I got the youngest girl in 2004 and that was Ericka Acla. She was 3 years old that time.

Meet my girl, Ericka Acla now 5 or 6 years old
The previous annual reports I got, it was her mother who used to write me letters. 3 years after, Ericka is bigger and she knows how to write already and I was almost in tears to receive a letter she personally wrote...


Heart-melting isn't it? She completed Kinder and promoted to Grade 1 this school year 2007. She wrote me that gets school supplies, tuition fees, uniforms and bag from the donation I give. *Double aaawww...* It’s always a nice feeling to know that I am able to help a person.

Everytime I receive letters and pictures from Ericka, I always show them to Xave. I’m not surprised when one day, he asked me to bring him to World Vision. Here’s his guy,

Jemarc Purol

Xave got him when he was in first grade. He is now in Grade 2 this 2007 school year. Here's the letter he wrote for Xave.

Xave and I support these children discreetly. We don’t want to be announcing, “hey, we are sponsoring blah blah blah”. Maybe you are wondering why we are now discussing this openly to public.

Because we wanted you to sponsor a child, too. To give fullness of life to every child, believing that for all the good things we do to and for a child, will bring us closer to the Kingdom of God.

What are you waiting for? Build a better world for children.

World Vision details: CLICK CLICK CLICK!

Websites:
http://www.worldvision.org (outside Philippines)
http://www.worldvision.org.ph (within in Philippines)

Telephone number: +632-3727777 (within Philippines)

Hmmm....

“What's worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should have healed years ago and never did. Maybe our old wounds teach us something...they remind us of where we've been and what we've overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That's what we like to think. But that's not the way it is, is it? Something's we just have to learn over and over and over again.”

-Dr. Meredith Grey

***

"But as tough as wanting something can be...the people who suffer the most...are those who don't know what they want."

-Dr. Meredith Grey

Hello & Goodbye

I had 2 important meetings today.

1. With Mr. BB: I got the offer from DELL and I’m having my medical check up (a requirement) anytime this week. Finally, the long wait is over and it came at the right time. I’m H-A-P-P-Y!.

My instinct never fails me. (see previous blogs)

2. With Mr. DBA (the president): It’s always hard to say goodbye. I never thought I’d shed tears. (Yes, I did!) They’ve been so good to me and it’s difficult to put everything to an end. It’s like breaking up with a BF. *heehee* I failed to hide the emotional side of me. Well, I’ve always been transparent. I don’t know how to hide feelings. I can’t do poker face. Look at my eyes (and face) and you’ll know what’s inside me. *wink*

I’m thankful and proud to be part of Microwarehouse Inc. Being part of this company alone is a big opportunity for me. My stint there will always be memorable. But all things have its beginning and end --- short and sweet.

3 Things...

1. I quit my job and my last day is on the 10th of December. That’s 7 days from now! I’m in a vacation mode already.

2. I’ve been spending too much time on the computer (from sun up to sun down) and I feel I need to some time off to catch up on my reading.

Here’s my new book: The Tipping Point (How Little Things Can Make a Big Difference)



3. Something special is happening in July 2008…

One Mind One Heart

The long wait is over!

Xave and I went to Lacoste, and parted ways inside. I went to the ladies’ section whilst Xave off to men’s. A few seconds after, I hurried myself to see him on the other side whilst he was rushing towards me. We were both surprised that we were holding the same item --- chocolate brown pique! We’ve been waiting for that for so long now.

Later on, I thought of getting a different color (yes, sometimes I'm fickleminded) but Xave said I should dare not let my hands off it as it would take some time again for them to have that color and it’s nice that we have a his and hers pique. *heehee* I followed his advise.

That's Xave. What he wants, he gets. And whatever decisions he make, he sticks to it and nobody can make his mind change. Very decisive, persistent and have great attention to details. Traits I do have except for the latter. *heehee*

It’s just so surprising to be sharing one thought and one action. *hahaha* But there are also times we clash but at the end of the day, we always try to resolve whatever issues we have. It kills us to sleep while having bad feelings for each other.

Oh well, the long weekend is over. *sob* Tomorrow is back to reality (think work, traffic...). I'm in a Xmas mode already. I can smell the Xmas breeze. I'm in the room and I can feel the extra cool air our aircon is emiting and it's touching my skin. I'm shivering and I think I have to go now. I'm already freezing, I need a comforter and a shut eye.

Goodnight peeps! *smile*

Sweet Saturday

It was a long day yesterday. Our whereabouts:


Fernbrook Gardens

Xave and I together with his parents went to Fernbrook Garden’s for the ribbon cutting. Construction is still on going though but somehow we have a glimpse already on how it’s going to look like. Beautiful and breath taking! We can’t wait to see the place to be completely done.

I want these pictures to somehow serve as a teaser...*wink*

Tito and Tita as they walk towards Fernbrook entrance


Mini Basilica (Notre Dame de vi Chappelle) where our ceremony will take place

Top of a hill chapel just inside Fernbrook Gardens. There's a lake underneath the chapel where the Gondola will be stationed (ala Venice). Xave and I are thinking of using the Gondola instead of the Horse Drawn Carriage, Limousine, Bentley or Rolls Royce. Gondola is something new and different. *smiles* Well, it's not yet final though. As the wedding gets nearer, we'll be able to make our plans more concrete if not, final.

Byzanine Garden where our reception will be held


And us, enjoying and loving the moment


Greenbelt

We picked up Amae in JRP for lunch in Italianis Greenbelt. It was a hearty meal and we just talked about the wedding. Tito and Tita are now beginning to ask more details. Right after lunch, we went to JRP again to bring Amae for her afternoon class then, went back to Greenbelt to kill time.

Heard mass in Christ the King.


Eastwood

On our way home, Tito asked us to go on a gimik to celebrate and he chose Eastwood to be the place of the night. *heehee* Dinner and some booze in Ipanema whilst enjoying the live performance of Martin N. Great singer! Tito wanted to go back next week. *chuckles*

That was it! Our long busy day, nothing fancy though but it was good to be complete again after some time. Sweet.

Let Go and Let God

Excerpt from KC's blog:


God didn't live to teach us how to want more...His life was about the challenge of letting go. They say, let go of something first, go down first, and you'll earn the kind of faith that'll allow you new beginnings and the freedom to grow.

Hmm, makes sense.

Livin' Life

I don’t know why I’m being emotional lately. Too many expected and unexpected things are happening around me. I used to be so deadma before but now, I noticed that I’m getting responsive each day. I don’t want to think that I’m just PMS-ing. Definitely not! I deeply care for the people close to my heart.

In every event that happens (big or small things that move me) I tend to always find the purpose/s behind it. Sometimes I’m successful but there are times I am not. But that will never dampen my spirits. Life is not perfect anyway.

I feel blessed to be spared from a number of appalling situations any normal individual can experience. Well, I had my share of grievances also and they were all heartbreaking and life changing! If I could turn back time, I would still want to go through those times, I will not leave out anything as those pains, heartaches, and tears made me the person I am now.

I gained a lot of lessons from those experiences and I would like to share these to people. I’m a pusher, I push people to accept whatever comes their way, embrace change and dance to the music of life. How can you enjoy life and be happy if all you do is sit in a corner, watch and envy people, regret situations and dream without making any moves?

I’m not saying my life is perfect, it isn’t! I also have personal issues to deal with, problems to think about, bills to pay and future to plan and prepare.

I take things one day at a time. If I get tired, I take some time off. I try not to think of other people but myself only (even just for a few hours). I make sure I have my “me time”. Sometimes, it’s nice to be alone and away from anybody. I deserve it, everyone deserves it!

Conceal or Reveal?

Finally, I decided to reveal. Yes, I spilled the beans! I don’t want to prolong it further. Uh-huh, it’s always nice to be transparent to people. Aside from them appreciating it, this also gives me such relief.

I hope Mr. President will take this objectively. If he is indeed a good boss, he won’t take it against me. This is definitely better! The downside, this entails a lot of hard work! (there’s no easy work, anyway) Anytime this week I’m pretty sure I’d be called to the President’s office. *waiting, nail biting*

I don’t want to jinx this so I decided to conceal (for the meantime) where I am going…

Expect the Expected...and the Unexpected!

Sometimes in life we have to suddenly face situations, which we can only think of in our wildest nightmares. When we imagine ourselves to be in a difficult situation, we derive more thrills out of it, because we are actually not experiencing it in real life and at the same time we are having a marvelous adventure.

The unexpected always gives us more excitement than the expected.

However, there are times that I think people have to spare some time preparing for the unknown the same way they plan for the expected.

P.S. Xave and I are giving this book to help and guide our dear friend, KM as she takes this journey of her life. Xave has something for you, too --- Chocolate milk! *wink*

Message from Mother to Child

I want to make this a strategy to bring up my kids in the future…

• I gave you life, but cannot live it for you.

• I can give you directions, but I cannot be there to lead you.

• I can take you to church, but I cannot make you believe.

• I can buy you beautiful clothes, but I cannot make you beautiful inside.

• I can give you love, but I cannot force it upon you.

• I can teach you to share, but I cannot make you unselfish.

• I can teach you to respect, but I cannot force you to show honor.

• I can advise you about friends, but cannot choose them for you.

• I can advise you about sex, but I cannot keep you pure.

• I can tell you about alcohol & drugs, but I cannot say “no” for you.

• I can tell you about lofty goals, but I cannot achieve them for you.

• I can teach you about kindness, but I cannot force you to be gracious.

• I can pray for you, but I cannot make you walk with God.

• I can tell you how to live, but I cannot give you eternal life.

I can "unconditionally" love you all of my life…and I will.

- Unknown Author

P.S. Happy Birthday to Xave's sis, Amae. We all love you!

P.P.S. To my soon-to-be-mom friend KM, have a safe pregnancy, pray and you will be fine. Take care of yourself and your little one. Xave and I love you! See you soon...

BEE = Xave & Tammy

These pictures speak a thousand words…





He’ll be back tomorrow.

Missing him… *pout*

Unforgettable!

I have 3 experiences that I will never forget in this lifetime (to add to the many others…) *haha*

1. I was almost robbed!

Yes, right in front of our office. How? I was about to ride my car when I saw this guy in white rushing towards me. Thanks to my gut feel and presence of mind. I hurried myself inside the car and immediately locked my doors. I think he was trying to say something to me I don’t know because my windows were closed. Then, I started the engine and jerked the car towards him when he went in front of me. I was stunned when he started pretending to guide me going out of the parking. Duh?

2. I passed out!

Uh-huh! Where? In a place in Manila called Tabora. Known for very affordable Christmas decors. My bad, I had coffee only in the morning and it was past lunch time already and we haven’t taken our meals yet. I was woozy, and the last time I remembered, I went to Xave to tell something and BOOM! That was my 2-second of fame! *heehee* I was conscious after 2 seconds and hurried ourselves to the nearest fast food (Jollibee) for lunch. I felt drowsy after.


3. I cried a river!

Where? In a movie house! *muwahaha* Xave, me and Amae watched ‘One More Chance’ last night it was the only movie that made me cry a river! I don’t like the main characters but that didn’t stop me to see it. I love how the story was put to life.

In life, anything goes! Not bad to experience these things, what is important I'm still in one piece. That is more than enough for me.

Take extra careful, peeps!

LICE = LIES

WARNING: This can be so much of biatching *sorry* and this blog is LOOOOONG. I promise, this would be the LAST.

Here we go…

Let’s name this 2nd person as, hmm…LICE. (codename courtesy of Xave as he is more pissed off than me *haha* ) Yes, the full-blown lisa in Filipino. Sounds like LIES as her life is satiated with resentment and falsehood.

LICE and FREAKY have something in common. Aside from the their unusual personality, they both have the same zodiac sign. (What sign? Well, that would be too much for me to give away but maybe later, I can. *wink*) I knew it! Birds of the same feather flock together! *muwahaha*

Xave and I decided not to have our children under this zodiac sign. *utang na loob* Xave is actually counting months just to make sure we get away with this freaky sign. Sorry if some of you are under this zodiac, PEACE! *smiles* I know, there are some exceptions to the rule and perhaps you might be one of them.

Going back, I had not so good impressions of LICE and it goes well with everyone. Yes, every single person around us! (hard to believe, right?) I tried to ignore what my gut feel is telling me and gave her chances to prove herself. (read: many chances for years!) I don’t want to be judgmental. However, the more I get know her, the more I discover her living in mere fabrication. Frankly, I’m totally turned off! One of the many reasons why I didn't make any effort to be close to her. I can't force myself to like her and be plastic. And all the while I thought I was the only one to notice all these in her. Lately, revelations dawned on me. All people find LICE the same way I do. Take note, WITHOUT me feeding even a bit of information to them. Well, I guess they are sensitive enough to observe her keenly. More sensitive than I do. Who are these people? I better not drop names as doing so might make her heart burn.

I’m not claiming I’m perfect because I am not and nobody is. But I can tell people straight in the eye that I never make up stories. I tell white lies, everyone does but never and in no way lies to change or shall I say manipulate mind and life of people.

I don’t understand why she is so engrossed on making up stories. I don’t know what euphoria she gets from doing all these craps. I tried to understand…

Maybe [unconsciously] she is dying to please and win people around her by trying to look impressive. Sorry, never effective! I believe out of the 100 show offs she did, none of them materialized. Peeps, don’t get me wrong here. I’m not making api this person. I'm just being candid here. I like her to know that we are all aware of what she is doing and we were not born in the past so she shouldn't make us look stupid.

This might be an eye-opener not only to her but to all of us as well. I don't believe she is the only person like this on planet earth. You might have friends like her, too. All things happen for a reason. I wanted to think that I/we met her to appreciate other people around us hmm, among other possible reasons.

Whew, so now please allow me to site some of the many intolerable actual scenarios this person made up:

1. PASALUBONGS from FRANCE--- car accessories for BF, designers clothes, shoes and bags from a foreign country. What did we get? Not even chocolates from Duty Free! *haha*

2. CARS. From F150 to CRV and maybe some more I’d care less to know. Duh? Were you able to buy all these? Where are they now? Probably parked inside her faux pas LV bag grabbed in HK flea market? Trying to pass as genuine one? She can never fool me on bags...goodness gravy! Even from a far, I’d know if it would be worth my time to scrutinize. I don't have to get closer to the bag to know if its real or faux. I don't get it why she needs to tell people it's real! Hmm, I dare you go with me to LV Greenbelt and have your bag together with your wallet authenticated. Proven real, I'd give you one bag. Deal? *haha*

3. CONDO. Endlessly saying she's getting condo units. Where are these now? She might tell us they’re being rented. Oh yeah?

4. Drives BF's Mom for shopping. This is actually funny! Does she have a driver’s license to begin with? Does she know how to really drive? I never saw her, not even once. Sweetie, be REAL! Oh! I still remember her telling me she tried driving my car. *pulse rating* And even sneaked on my bag while I was asleep to get my car key. The nerve of her to even touch my belongings! *fuming mad*

5. Make Your Own Havaianas. How many pairs did she get again? Oh, 3 pairs on the 1st day at two grand each? Let me guess, she gave her 2 pairs away? Wow, BIG TIME! I’m impressed! *rolling on the floor laughing*

6. Missed the plane going to U.S. Oh, everybody around her just laughed out loud on this one! OMG! This lady is making us look stupid and this is too much to bear! Who does she think would buy this crap? None of us. Does she has a US visa in the first place? What’s in her? She needs to be shaken off from deep sleep!

7. Telling people she got pregnant and had a child? When? Where? Who? Oh, maybe the pictures of her pamangkins she posted in Friendster long time ago for “P” to see. *pathetic*

Some people may admire her but most people will surely pity her for fabricating all these. I have yet to include the many others. So who’s UNREAL and PRETENTIOUS? Me??? Girl, (yes I am talking to you now) try to do a headcount of people who believe in you. I tell you, you’d be lucky to get 5. These perhaps your friends you refuse to show the REAL you or probably your relatives. Uh-oh! We now know the REAL you that's why you are getting this cold treatment...

Take time to pause for a while and reflect on why these not-so-good things are happening to you? Does karma ring a bell? Tsk! Be afraid, be very afraid!

Come on, all these years, we tried to ignore and accept you as you are but you get worse and worse everyday. Respect, appreciation, trust and love is never freely given. You have to earn it. For now, it’s only you who can help yourself. Accept who and what you are and people will respect and love you with all their hearts and souls. You can start from here.

I can be your best friend but I can also be your worst enemy. Don't let envy get into your nerves, it will bring you nowhere. Have your own identity. Get your own friends. Get your own life. Stop living in mine.

Peeps, sorry for biatching. It’s about time to make some revelations about this lady...I’m hoping after reading this she will stop her babble about me.

For Pete’s sake, mind your own business because I don’t care even a bit about you. I'm never affected on anything that happens to you. If you want me to say it again, I'm totally turned off since day one. Please accept that reality. We can never be friends. And please, you cannot stop me from being friends with your #1 competition who is way better than you. Not only in looks and personality (especially breeding) but what's inside her head and heart as well.

You might be looking at her in a different perspective. I can’t blame you on that because you do not know the real story. You have to know the side B of every situation for people to believe that you are actually moving on and more importantly for you to have that peace of mind you are craving. You have too many questions but you tend to get too little answer. Why don’t you find out the truth? Yes, seek for the reality straight from the person whom you loved and trusted all these years...and hurt you the most!

Truth will set you free.

"Freaky!"

I’m never judgmental but people say first impression lasts and I wanted to believe otherwise but what can I do? It really does! Having this in mind however, I still try to give people the benefit of the doubt and chances to prove themselves. I don’t know, I think I have this bionic sense of feeling that I can tell if this person is ummm, bad vibes even from a far more so on our very first meeting.

My gut feeling never fails me. 8 out of 10, I always hit it right! Yeah, 80% hit rate it is! *haha* Wonder about the 20%? Hmm...these two are very deceiving, blimey!

Okay, the 1st is rather WAS a long time friend whom I entrusted my whole life with. Let's call her FREAKY. It hurts to know her betrayal (after how many years!) and she is the least person I can think of who can do that to me. Unbelievable and unimaginable!

At least she is now out of my sight and life. I don't care about the time we've spent together. I'd always go for quality over quantity. I don't care about the good old times, those were wasted and useless times anyway. I don't care if her daughter binded us together. It was not my fault in the first place. It's nice to go on with life without her. I'm glad I was able to discover her freak shows. She loves to say "freaky" all the time. Well, that connects everything! *muwahaha*

Thanks to Cielo, for having the courage to let me know. Better late than never. People like you are definitely for keeps.

Forgiveness? Sure, why not? But I will make sure she cannot go back or even get near of my circle anymore. They say, to forgive is to forget. I can stop thinking of her but never on what she did.

Who is the other 10%? Tomorrow, watch this space...

Golden Birthday

Xave is in town. As expected, we hit the malls and pigged out. Two of the many things Xave miss when he’s at The Farm. Well, same goes with me. *heehee* Malling/enjoying good food is never the same sans Xave. While I write this, I can feel my legs in pain for walking half a day and my stomach so full because of excessive eating! *haha*

Earlier, we had a lunch date. Just the two of us. I was so filled and my eyes were dropping but I didn’t want to shake off the momentum of Xave wanting to go places. I had to fight my drowsiness. *beams*

Tonight was another event. It was a post-birthday dinner treat for his Dad in Minato and it was on us. It’s supposed to be a surprise dinner treat for him but for unavoidable situation, it became no surprise anymore. It was indeed a scrumptious feast!

Here’s Tito obviously enjoying the So Kal Bi among others


Happy Golden Birthday Tito! We love you!

P.S. It would be happier and complete if Erik was with us…

Ewwwww....

I’m outgoing.
I love meeting people.
I’m okay with diversity.
I’m adaptable to change.

But I’m just human to simply lose patience on unbearable people.

People with acid words, mind and manners, never heard of GMRC.
People who live in fabrication.
People reaping benefits from others for not having anything but keep on pretending to have everything.
People we wish we never bumped into.
People we crave to be out of our sight more so our system.
People we hope to disappear in the thin air like POOF!

PARASITES. Deserve to be in the woods. Insecticides, anyone?

Work, Work and All Work!

It’s Monday once again and that means back to work.

I have a deadline to meet, Cisco business planning on the 8th and I have yet to start my presentation. My colleagues are surprisingly getting lax. I don’t wanna head the team. I wanted them to learn something --- to know on when to work alone and as a team. I don’t want them to rely on me fully. It’s for their own good, anyway. I feel I won’t be staying there for long...

My instinct never fails me.

For the past days, I’ve been waiting for their inputs. I got some, but not so meaty. I’m disappointed. Or perhaps my expectations are again hard to meet? I’m adjusting but do I have to lower my standards to be achievable? I don’t think so. I just don't like them to look incompetent incase they'll be moving to other company. But there are times I wanted to give up. How can I help people if they are not willing to help themselves?

Tomorrow, I have to do my part and maybe start to “lead”. We are running out of time! Frankly, I always feel I can do best by working independently or as a team rather than “leading a group”. Not really my cup of tea.

I’m so looking forward for this weekend. ☺☺☺

11-01-07

All Saint's Day.

I paid a visit to my Dad. 15 years feels just yesterday.

So many memories that will forever stay with me. All were happy thoughts.

I will always be a Daddy's Girl.

Wake Up Call

Expectation. A strong belief that you or someone will or should achieve something.

Contentment. A state of happiness and satisfaction.

Expectations and contentment, more often than not comes hand in hand.

People always long for better and the best. Unstoppable wants and needs. Never satisfied. And this makes people upset, disheartened and depressed. The more we want, the further we expect. Oftentimes, we step down on others toes just for us to get what we want and be up there. Promotion is one example. Any position is never enough.

Most of us are busy endlessly planning for the future and we tend to forget that present is our life. Putting much effort, time and yourself in planning for the future is not my core. I do think about the future and I, too have long term plans but I better live in the present because I don't wanna miss life.

Balance is the key.

I unfailingly believe that to be able to have a happy life, one should appreciate and embrace whatever comes his/her way. Good or bad will make one a better person. As most people say "charge to experience".

I am a student of life. I like the way how I experience my existence.

Road Trip + Surprise Call

I skipped work today to avoid the NLEX traffic. I can't conceal my excitement while I drive myself to Bataan. I miss my Bee very much. I can't wait to see him, hug him big and tight. I miss how he makes each day of my life euphoric.

Driving alone makes me reflect on things and do crazy stuffs to wriggle out boredom and sleep.

1. I had movies in my mind. Situations and scenarios that I would like to happen anytime in the future. Sometimes, it's just so high to day dream and when I dream, I dream big. *heehee* Why not? It's free!

2. Had a new playlist in my iPod. Played them in full blast and I was singing like I was in my solo concert. *haha* Thanks to my magic tint, my identity was guarded. *battling eyelash*

In between, I was chomping Kitkats.

Almost an hour after reaching the farm whilst I was in a middle of my nap, I heard "How to Save A Life" playing. It was my phone ringing pala. I'm in total disbelief to receive a call from Mr. BB.

If you're a frequent reader of my blog, you know who he is. For the benefit of those who happen to bump my blog just now, Mr. BB is the Country Manager of this company I called "my first choice" in my previous entries. The company I've been meaning to be part of. The same company I was about to join in 2005 but missed on purpose because of Samsung's counter offer. I almost regret missing that opportunity but as I've said I never deplore anything in my life. I always believe that things happen for a reason. You may not understand in the beginning but later on when the right time comes, the justification of that action or event will unfold.

Missing an opportunity is one thing, getting it for the 2nd time is something! No more turning down this time. I'm gonna grab it! *beams*

The Leopard Experience

It's hard to contain my excitement when Leopard was finally installed in my Macbook. I was so eager to drive home and explore the 300+ features of it. I doubt if I'd be able to go over them one by one. That would be insane! *heehee*

I'd still need more time for enjoy this little joy of mine. Something to do on my days off!

To my fellow Muggers, why kill yourself of waiting some more? Go get one! *beams*

Our WEDsite

I’ve been contemplating on making a wedsite for Xave and myself. However, I don’t know how, where and when to start.

Thanks to the long weekend and to Pops, who introduced me to the Wedding Announcer. She’s the wife of my former officemate, Cocoy. They are newly weds.

Visit our WEDSITE at http://xavierandtammy.weddingannouncer.com

You’ll get to know us, the Groom and Bride and the special people who will be part of our big day.

P.S. Our wedsite is still “work in progress”. So please bear with us as we complete all the pertinent spaces with information.

Enoy reading! *smiles*

5 months to go...

I’m beginning to panic. So many things to do, so little time. Or maybe, we have been procrastinating a lot. *slaps forehead* My head is killing me now. Headache!

It’s a long weekend and I’m spending most of the time in front of my computer endlessly doing research on suppliers to get for our wedding. We have to be finalizing all contracts with suppliers by now. But I’m stuck here staring at nowhere. *guffaw* It’s just so difficult to be temporarily working alone. *sigh* I have to be productive.

Save the Date, done!

P.S. Peeps, I have finally uploaded pics in my previous post, Long Weekend It Is. Check ‘em out! =)

Wedding Finger: Why The 4th Finger?

Why do you call it the ring finger? Why do you need to put the wedding ring in your fourth digit when there are other choices? Here is the attempt to answer this question.

The THUMB represents your parents.
The INDEX (second finger) represents your siblings.
The MIDDLE finger represents yourself.
The RING (fourth finger) represents your life partner, and
The PINKIE (fifth finger) represents your children.

Now, open your palms (face to face), bend the middle fingers and hold them together - back to back.
Secondly, open and hold the remaining three fingers and the thumb - tip to tip.

(As shown in the figure below):


Now, try to separate your thumbs (representing the parents), they will open. Why? Because your parents are not destined to stay with you lifelong, and have to leave you sooner or later.

Please join your thumbs as before and separate your Index fingers (representing siblings), they will also open, because your brothers and sisters will have their own families and will have to lead their own separate lives.

Now join the Index fingers and separate your little fingers (representing your children), they will open too, because children also will get married and settle down someday.

Finally, join your little fingers, and try to separate your Ring fingers (representing your spouse).

Can you do it? Can you separate each ring finger?

You will be surprised to see that you just CANNOT, because Husband & Wife have to remain together all their lives - through thick and thin!

FANTASTIC!

Patience

Patience is the ability to accept to tolerate delay, trouble, or suffering without getting angry or upset. Most say patience is a virtue.

At work, everyday is like a test of my patience.

Professionalism is the competence or skill expected of a (working) person. I simply do not understand why some people lack traits I expect to be essential in a human being, for an employee to be specific.

Sure, I have to comprehend that not all people are the same. Not everyone is lucky enough to be trained well by his or her superiors to be able to fair with others. I guess, I’m again having this high hopes for my team and I’m beginning to be upset as they are not meeting any of my expectations.

Oh well..

Everything In Its Time

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time

Live, Laugh and Love

Later in life you’ll learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul. You’ll learn that love doesn’t mean yearning and company doesn’t mean security. You begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and gifts aren’t promises. You learn to build all your roads today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans.

After a while, you’ll learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So plant you own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. You’ll learn that you can endure, that you are strong and you have worth.

Learn to live, laugh and love!

Que Horror!

The usual scenario on Fridays, traffic everywhere. To top that off, it’s Midnight Madness plus the Octoberfest in Metrowalk (I think). I started to believe this caused the severe traffic in the metro. Until alarming messages flooded my inbox, first three came from Xave recounting the explosion incident in Glorietta Makati. He was in the farm watching the news on TV whilst I was in the office infront of my computer. I immediately clicked Safari and opened the GMA News and Inquirer sites. I didn’t know it was that serious until I saw the pictures and articles in the internet. There were 8 fatalities and 30 casualties (now, 113 as of press time) and still counting. Goodness gravy!

I feel so bad for all the victims of this tragedy. Who would think that a leisurely afternoon in a popular shopping mall could turn out this way?

I hope the weekend would be peaceful. Take extra care people, and spend some time with your loved ones…

The Knot

Check time, it’s past 10pm and I’m still in my work clothes! *eeeek* Xave has been out of my sight for 2 days now. *sob* I have to keep myself busy so as not to feel his absence that much.

Ok, I’ve finally explored this wedding website Anele (thanks dear!) advised me to take a look. Doing so, took 3 hours of my time. I find the knot very efficient as I can make electronic budget and guest list. Big help! *smiles*

This wedding prep is making me crazy! It’s hard to find time now that I’m back to work. We really need to get a coordinator the soonest possible time.

Oh, I better hit the shower now.

The Long Wait Is Over

Finally, Leopard to ship in October 26! (27 in Manila)

Xave is leaving for Bataan tomorrow. He’s back to work and he’ll be away for like 20 days. I will surely miss him! *no doubt* Another adjustment for me but it’s fine. I embrace change. I can visit him on weekends anyway, that is if he’ll allow me to drive alone. Sometimes, he tends to be so protective. As if I never drive alone to and from Bataan. *sigh* So, what’s the connection of Leopard to Xave?

BIG!

Leopard will help me divert my attention from Xave not being here to my Macbook and that’s what you call right timing! *hahaha* Can’t wait to let Xave know about this Leopard coming next week. He’ll be twice as excited as I am. *beams*

Long Weekend It Is

I’m exhausted but I’m happy. Essentially, these are the things that transpired:

Weddings…get set go!!! Bridal Fair @ Rockwell Tent
(October 13, ’08 Saturday)

Xave and I went to the bridal fair, hoping to book a designer but we failed. Edd Sy was the only one who joined the event and we were a bit disappointed. We wanted more options. *sigh*

We saw a special gift for our Principal Sponsors (ninongs and ninangs). It’s the same gift Cardinal Sin gave to Pope John Paul II that is currently displayed in Vatican together with the other gifts received by Popes (not by Pope John Paul II only). Impressive isn’t it? We didn’t think twice about getting them. Can’t wait to personally hand them to our Principal Sponsors and to have one, too! *wink*

We met Lito Genilo (by accident) in person! *funny* His the best supplier we have to date. Can’t wait for our February Pre-Nup Pictorial! *heeeheee*

Bataan (Oct. 13 to 14, ’08 Saturday and Sunday)

Today is my nephew Tomi's (Thomas Peter) christening. He’s bigger and fairer now! I was holding him almost the entire day. I love him and I miss already. *straight face*

Tomi's best shot (irritated, hot inside the church)

Tomi with me in a barong

Tomi with Mommy (his Momma)

Tomi with Tita (his soon-to-be Momma #2, or maybe Momsy?)

Xave with 3Ts: Tammy, Tracy and Tomi

Today is also the "Pamanhikan" of Xave's family to my family. It went well. No more awkward feeling as they have met several times already in my almost a decade of relationship with Xave. Seeing Tita and Mommy do their usual "beso-beso" made us feel so differently. Exceptionally in bliss!

I was in the passenger seat all through out the trip. Umm, I have a little confession to make. *giggles* To and from Bataan, Xave kept on playing wedding songs (from the CD we got from the fair and from my iPod). He is actually looking for the best wedding song to play while I walk down the aisle. *sweeeeeet* I can’t help but shed tears *shy shy* whilst listening to these songs either once or over and over. *hahaha* Oh well, I just hope he didn’t see me in tears. *teehee* But I guess, he did. *pout*

We have 2 songs in mind and still searching then, Xave will choose later on. Oh, suggestions will be greatly appreciated. Please leave comments. *smiles*

So that’s it for now, can’t think much. My stomach is making some weird noise, hungry maybe. Gotta go for dinner.

P.S. Tonight is the premier of PBB, let’s see if the names listed below will make it inside. I’m dead curious, really!