Let Go and Let God

Excerpt from KC's blog:


God didn't live to teach us how to want more...His life was about the challenge of letting go. They say, let go of something first, go down first, and you'll earn the kind of faith that'll allow you new beginnings and the freedom to grow.

Hmm, makes sense.

Livin' Life

I don’t know why I’m being emotional lately. Too many expected and unexpected things are happening around me. I used to be so deadma before but now, I noticed that I’m getting responsive each day. I don’t want to think that I’m just PMS-ing. Definitely not! I deeply care for the people close to my heart.

In every event that happens (big or small things that move me) I tend to always find the purpose/s behind it. Sometimes I’m successful but there are times I am not. But that will never dampen my spirits. Life is not perfect anyway.

I feel blessed to be spared from a number of appalling situations any normal individual can experience. Well, I had my share of grievances also and they were all heartbreaking and life changing! If I could turn back time, I would still want to go through those times, I will not leave out anything as those pains, heartaches, and tears made me the person I am now.

I gained a lot of lessons from those experiences and I would like to share these to people. I’m a pusher, I push people to accept whatever comes their way, embrace change and dance to the music of life. How can you enjoy life and be happy if all you do is sit in a corner, watch and envy people, regret situations and dream without making any moves?

I’m not saying my life is perfect, it isn’t! I also have personal issues to deal with, problems to think about, bills to pay and future to plan and prepare.

I take things one day at a time. If I get tired, I take some time off. I try not to think of other people but myself only (even just for a few hours). I make sure I have my “me time”. Sometimes, it’s nice to be alone and away from anybody. I deserve it, everyone deserves it!

Conceal or Reveal?

Finally, I decided to reveal. Yes, I spilled the beans! I don’t want to prolong it further. Uh-huh, it’s always nice to be transparent to people. Aside from them appreciating it, this also gives me such relief.

I hope Mr. President will take this objectively. If he is indeed a good boss, he won’t take it against me. This is definitely better! The downside, this entails a lot of hard work! (there’s no easy work, anyway) Anytime this week I’m pretty sure I’d be called to the President’s office. *waiting, nail biting*

I don’t want to jinx this so I decided to conceal (for the meantime) where I am going…

Expect the Expected...and the Unexpected!

Sometimes in life we have to suddenly face situations, which we can only think of in our wildest nightmares. When we imagine ourselves to be in a difficult situation, we derive more thrills out of it, because we are actually not experiencing it in real life and at the same time we are having a marvelous adventure.

The unexpected always gives us more excitement than the expected.

However, there are times that I think people have to spare some time preparing for the unknown the same way they plan for the expected.

P.S. Xave and I are giving this book to help and guide our dear friend, KM as she takes this journey of her life. Xave has something for you, too --- Chocolate milk! *wink*

Message from Mother to Child

I want to make this a strategy to bring up my kids in the future…

• I gave you life, but cannot live it for you.

• I can give you directions, but I cannot be there to lead you.

• I can take you to church, but I cannot make you believe.

• I can buy you beautiful clothes, but I cannot make you beautiful inside.

• I can give you love, but I cannot force it upon you.

• I can teach you to share, but I cannot make you unselfish.

• I can teach you to respect, but I cannot force you to show honor.

• I can advise you about friends, but cannot choose them for you.

• I can advise you about sex, but I cannot keep you pure.

• I can tell you about alcohol & drugs, but I cannot say “no” for you.

• I can tell you about lofty goals, but I cannot achieve them for you.

• I can teach you about kindness, but I cannot force you to be gracious.

• I can pray for you, but I cannot make you walk with God.

• I can tell you how to live, but I cannot give you eternal life.

I can "unconditionally" love you all of my life…and I will.

- Unknown Author

P.S. Happy Birthday to Xave's sis, Amae. We all love you!

P.P.S. To my soon-to-be-mom friend KM, have a safe pregnancy, pray and you will be fine. Take care of yourself and your little one. Xave and I love you! See you soon...

BEE = Xave & Tammy

These pictures speak a thousand words…





He’ll be back tomorrow.

Missing him… *pout*

Unforgettable!

I have 3 experiences that I will never forget in this lifetime (to add to the many others…) *haha*

1. I was almost robbed!

Yes, right in front of our office. How? I was about to ride my car when I saw this guy in white rushing towards me. Thanks to my gut feel and presence of mind. I hurried myself inside the car and immediately locked my doors. I think he was trying to say something to me I don’t know because my windows were closed. Then, I started the engine and jerked the car towards him when he went in front of me. I was stunned when he started pretending to guide me going out of the parking. Duh?

2. I passed out!

Uh-huh! Where? In a place in Manila called Tabora. Known for very affordable Christmas decors. My bad, I had coffee only in the morning and it was past lunch time already and we haven’t taken our meals yet. I was woozy, and the last time I remembered, I went to Xave to tell something and BOOM! That was my 2-second of fame! *heehee* I was conscious after 2 seconds and hurried ourselves to the nearest fast food (Jollibee) for lunch. I felt drowsy after.


3. I cried a river!

Where? In a movie house! *muwahaha* Xave, me and Amae watched ‘One More Chance’ last night it was the only movie that made me cry a river! I don’t like the main characters but that didn’t stop me to see it. I love how the story was put to life.

In life, anything goes! Not bad to experience these things, what is important I'm still in one piece. That is more than enough for me.

Take extra careful, peeps!

LICE = LIES

WARNING: This can be so much of biatching *sorry* and this blog is LOOOOONG. I promise, this would be the LAST.

Here we go…

Let’s name this 2nd person as, hmm…LICE. (codename courtesy of Xave as he is more pissed off than me *haha* ) Yes, the full-blown lisa in Filipino. Sounds like LIES as her life is satiated with resentment and falsehood.

LICE and FREAKY have something in common. Aside from the their unusual personality, they both have the same zodiac sign. (What sign? Well, that would be too much for me to give away but maybe later, I can. *wink*) I knew it! Birds of the same feather flock together! *muwahaha*

Xave and I decided not to have our children under this zodiac sign. *utang na loob* Xave is actually counting months just to make sure we get away with this freaky sign. Sorry if some of you are under this zodiac, PEACE! *smiles* I know, there are some exceptions to the rule and perhaps you might be one of them.

Going back, I had not so good impressions of LICE and it goes well with everyone. Yes, every single person around us! (hard to believe, right?) I tried to ignore what my gut feel is telling me and gave her chances to prove herself. (read: many chances for years!) I don’t want to be judgmental. However, the more I get know her, the more I discover her living in mere fabrication. Frankly, I’m totally turned off! One of the many reasons why I didn't make any effort to be close to her. I can't force myself to like her and be plastic. And all the while I thought I was the only one to notice all these in her. Lately, revelations dawned on me. All people find LICE the same way I do. Take note, WITHOUT me feeding even a bit of information to them. Well, I guess they are sensitive enough to observe her keenly. More sensitive than I do. Who are these people? I better not drop names as doing so might make her heart burn.

I’m not claiming I’m perfect because I am not and nobody is. But I can tell people straight in the eye that I never make up stories. I tell white lies, everyone does but never and in no way lies to change or shall I say manipulate mind and life of people.

I don’t understand why she is so engrossed on making up stories. I don’t know what euphoria she gets from doing all these craps. I tried to understand…

Maybe [unconsciously] she is dying to please and win people around her by trying to look impressive. Sorry, never effective! I believe out of the 100 show offs she did, none of them materialized. Peeps, don’t get me wrong here. I’m not making api this person. I'm just being candid here. I like her to know that we are all aware of what she is doing and we were not born in the past so she shouldn't make us look stupid.

This might be an eye-opener not only to her but to all of us as well. I don't believe she is the only person like this on planet earth. You might have friends like her, too. All things happen for a reason. I wanted to think that I/we met her to appreciate other people around us hmm, among other possible reasons.

Whew, so now please allow me to site some of the many intolerable actual scenarios this person made up:

1. PASALUBONGS from FRANCE--- car accessories for BF, designers clothes, shoes and bags from a foreign country. What did we get? Not even chocolates from Duty Free! *haha*

2. CARS. From F150 to CRV and maybe some more I’d care less to know. Duh? Were you able to buy all these? Where are they now? Probably parked inside her faux pas LV bag grabbed in HK flea market? Trying to pass as genuine one? She can never fool me on bags...goodness gravy! Even from a far, I’d know if it would be worth my time to scrutinize. I don't have to get closer to the bag to know if its real or faux. I don't get it why she needs to tell people it's real! Hmm, I dare you go with me to LV Greenbelt and have your bag together with your wallet authenticated. Proven real, I'd give you one bag. Deal? *haha*

3. CONDO. Endlessly saying she's getting condo units. Where are these now? She might tell us they’re being rented. Oh yeah?

4. Drives BF's Mom for shopping. This is actually funny! Does she have a driver’s license to begin with? Does she know how to really drive? I never saw her, not even once. Sweetie, be REAL! Oh! I still remember her telling me she tried driving my car. *pulse rating* And even sneaked on my bag while I was asleep to get my car key. The nerve of her to even touch my belongings! *fuming mad*

5. Make Your Own Havaianas. How many pairs did she get again? Oh, 3 pairs on the 1st day at two grand each? Let me guess, she gave her 2 pairs away? Wow, BIG TIME! I’m impressed! *rolling on the floor laughing*

6. Missed the plane going to U.S. Oh, everybody around her just laughed out loud on this one! OMG! This lady is making us look stupid and this is too much to bear! Who does she think would buy this crap? None of us. Does she has a US visa in the first place? What’s in her? She needs to be shaken off from deep sleep!

7. Telling people she got pregnant and had a child? When? Where? Who? Oh, maybe the pictures of her pamangkins she posted in Friendster long time ago for “P” to see. *pathetic*

Some people may admire her but most people will surely pity her for fabricating all these. I have yet to include the many others. So who’s UNREAL and PRETENTIOUS? Me??? Girl, (yes I am talking to you now) try to do a headcount of people who believe in you. I tell you, you’d be lucky to get 5. These perhaps your friends you refuse to show the REAL you or probably your relatives. Uh-oh! We now know the REAL you that's why you are getting this cold treatment...

Take time to pause for a while and reflect on why these not-so-good things are happening to you? Does karma ring a bell? Tsk! Be afraid, be very afraid!

Come on, all these years, we tried to ignore and accept you as you are but you get worse and worse everyday. Respect, appreciation, trust and love is never freely given. You have to earn it. For now, it’s only you who can help yourself. Accept who and what you are and people will respect and love you with all their hearts and souls. You can start from here.

I can be your best friend but I can also be your worst enemy. Don't let envy get into your nerves, it will bring you nowhere. Have your own identity. Get your own friends. Get your own life. Stop living in mine.

Peeps, sorry for biatching. It’s about time to make some revelations about this lady...I’m hoping after reading this she will stop her babble about me.

For Pete’s sake, mind your own business because I don’t care even a bit about you. I'm never affected on anything that happens to you. If you want me to say it again, I'm totally turned off since day one. Please accept that reality. We can never be friends. And please, you cannot stop me from being friends with your #1 competition who is way better than you. Not only in looks and personality (especially breeding) but what's inside her head and heart as well.

You might be looking at her in a different perspective. I can’t blame you on that because you do not know the real story. You have to know the side B of every situation for people to believe that you are actually moving on and more importantly for you to have that peace of mind you are craving. You have too many questions but you tend to get too little answer. Why don’t you find out the truth? Yes, seek for the reality straight from the person whom you loved and trusted all these years...and hurt you the most!

Truth will set you free.

"Freaky!"

I’m never judgmental but people say first impression lasts and I wanted to believe otherwise but what can I do? It really does! Having this in mind however, I still try to give people the benefit of the doubt and chances to prove themselves. I don’t know, I think I have this bionic sense of feeling that I can tell if this person is ummm, bad vibes even from a far more so on our very first meeting.

My gut feeling never fails me. 8 out of 10, I always hit it right! Yeah, 80% hit rate it is! *haha* Wonder about the 20%? Hmm...these two are very deceiving, blimey!

Okay, the 1st is rather WAS a long time friend whom I entrusted my whole life with. Let's call her FREAKY. It hurts to know her betrayal (after how many years!) and she is the least person I can think of who can do that to me. Unbelievable and unimaginable!

At least she is now out of my sight and life. I don't care about the time we've spent together. I'd always go for quality over quantity. I don't care about the good old times, those were wasted and useless times anyway. I don't care if her daughter binded us together. It was not my fault in the first place. It's nice to go on with life without her. I'm glad I was able to discover her freak shows. She loves to say "freaky" all the time. Well, that connects everything! *muwahaha*

Thanks to Cielo, for having the courage to let me know. Better late than never. People like you are definitely for keeps.

Forgiveness? Sure, why not? But I will make sure she cannot go back or even get near of my circle anymore. They say, to forgive is to forget. I can stop thinking of her but never on what she did.

Who is the other 10%? Tomorrow, watch this space...

Golden Birthday

Xave is in town. As expected, we hit the malls and pigged out. Two of the many things Xave miss when he’s at The Farm. Well, same goes with me. *heehee* Malling/enjoying good food is never the same sans Xave. While I write this, I can feel my legs in pain for walking half a day and my stomach so full because of excessive eating! *haha*

Earlier, we had a lunch date. Just the two of us. I was so filled and my eyes were dropping but I didn’t want to shake off the momentum of Xave wanting to go places. I had to fight my drowsiness. *beams*

Tonight was another event. It was a post-birthday dinner treat for his Dad in Minato and it was on us. It’s supposed to be a surprise dinner treat for him but for unavoidable situation, it became no surprise anymore. It was indeed a scrumptious feast!

Here’s Tito obviously enjoying the So Kal Bi among others


Happy Golden Birthday Tito! We love you!

P.S. It would be happier and complete if Erik was with us…

Ewwwww....

I’m outgoing.
I love meeting people.
I’m okay with diversity.
I’m adaptable to change.

But I’m just human to simply lose patience on unbearable people.

People with acid words, mind and manners, never heard of GMRC.
People who live in fabrication.
People reaping benefits from others for not having anything but keep on pretending to have everything.
People we wish we never bumped into.
People we crave to be out of our sight more so our system.
People we hope to disappear in the thin air like POOF!

PARASITES. Deserve to be in the woods. Insecticides, anyone?

Work, Work and All Work!

It’s Monday once again and that means back to work.

I have a deadline to meet, Cisco business planning on the 8th and I have yet to start my presentation. My colleagues are surprisingly getting lax. I don’t wanna head the team. I wanted them to learn something --- to know on when to work alone and as a team. I don’t want them to rely on me fully. It’s for their own good, anyway. I feel I won’t be staying there for long...

My instinct never fails me.

For the past days, I’ve been waiting for their inputs. I got some, but not so meaty. I’m disappointed. Or perhaps my expectations are again hard to meet? I’m adjusting but do I have to lower my standards to be achievable? I don’t think so. I just don't like them to look incompetent incase they'll be moving to other company. But there are times I wanted to give up. How can I help people if they are not willing to help themselves?

Tomorrow, I have to do my part and maybe start to “lead”. We are running out of time! Frankly, I always feel I can do best by working independently or as a team rather than “leading a group”. Not really my cup of tea.

I’m so looking forward for this weekend. ☺☺☺

11-01-07

All Saint's Day.

I paid a visit to my Dad. 15 years feels just yesterday.

So many memories that will forever stay with me. All were happy thoughts.

I will always be a Daddy's Girl.

Wake Up Call

Expectation. A strong belief that you or someone will or should achieve something.

Contentment. A state of happiness and satisfaction.

Expectations and contentment, more often than not comes hand in hand.

People always long for better and the best. Unstoppable wants and needs. Never satisfied. And this makes people upset, disheartened and depressed. The more we want, the further we expect. Oftentimes, we step down on others toes just for us to get what we want and be up there. Promotion is one example. Any position is never enough.

Most of us are busy endlessly planning for the future and we tend to forget that present is our life. Putting much effort, time and yourself in planning for the future is not my core. I do think about the future and I, too have long term plans but I better live in the present because I don't wanna miss life.

Balance is the key.

I unfailingly believe that to be able to have a happy life, one should appreciate and embrace whatever comes his/her way. Good or bad will make one a better person. As most people say "charge to experience".

I am a student of life. I like the way how I experience my existence.