OMG, OMG, O-M-G!!! I couldn’t believe what just happened. (9.3.07 @ 10:45pm)
DP and I had a “heart to heart” talk. *almost 3 hours I think* It was like a father and daughter talking to each other. Suddenly, I miss my Daddy. It was my first time to have a serious conversation with him and A was our witness. *heehee* Thank God, A was there otherwise, I might have collapsed!
In the beginning, I thought he was just concerned about the condo he’s planning to buy and was waiting for my update. I was tasked to take care of the negotiations with the broker. I did update him. Well, that’s another story.
Afterwards, *maybe 30 minutes after* he was looking for me again. He took a seat near the computer table over a cup of tea. While me and A on the sofa busy with our Macbooks. Then he started talking again. This time, it was intense and very personal. He blurted out all what’s inside him --- His happiness, frustrations, worries, hopes, plans and feelings towards us. Things I never thought he’d tell me. I was in absolute shock! --- Am I the right person to hear all these? Why am I here without X? Honestly, I didn’t know how to handle the situation. I did the safest thing to do --- listen.
DP is a type of person who is tough, reserved, moody, deep and everybody tends to be aloof on him even his sons and daughter. We see him like a “weather”, always changing, very unpredictable. Reason why I always feel uneasy and distant (if I may call it that way) talking to him. People tend to misinterpret him.
Today changed everything.
I realized that he is a typical father like everyone else who lives and works hard for his family and loved ones, will do anything and everything to make them happy even to the point of sacrificing his own interests. He simply wants the best for his family. I’m lucky to discover that soft side of DP. I was actually touched. I really can’t help but shed tears on the things he is sharing with me and the reasons why he decided to impart these with me.
The way I see him, he seems to be a little stressed due to too much worrying about his family specially his children. He wanted to see his two sons be stable before he losses his breath. Morbid as it is but that is a reality. I feel for him and I feel for his family because I (we) lost my (our) Daddy long time ago and it was so sudden. So, I totally understand where is he coming from. He wanted everyone to be prepared and can stand on their own even without his presence. So he can go in peace. Seriously, this gave me goosebumps! Reality bites. I pray to God to give him loooooog life so we can spend more time with him.
He was emotional and vocal with his feelings. I can't remember how many times he said he loves us very much. He also said very nice words and compliments about me. Wow! *Me and A were controlling our tears, hahaha* It’s like my Daddy reincarnated in him and is in front of me talking. Incredible. Unexplainable.
He mentioned about the W thing. I was stunned. He said he couldn’t wait any longer. He’s so eager to know our plans (which in fact, no concrete one yet and tends to be our least priority). Somehow I felt he wanted to align his plans with ours because that event would create a big change on all of us (including them, of course). The very exact thing my Mommy told me.
It’s hard to narrate our entire conversation here in detail because we have discussed a lot! Some of them, I want to keep to myself (and X).
As I write this, my heart is still beating fast. Today is unforgettable. I would like to think that Daddy sent an angel and touched DP’s heart and mind which made this day happen.
Puzzle pieces forming together in front of my face. Whoa!
DP and I had a “heart to heart” talk. *almost 3 hours I think* It was like a father and daughter talking to each other. Suddenly, I miss my Daddy. It was my first time to have a serious conversation with him and A was our witness. *heehee* Thank God, A was there otherwise, I might have collapsed!
In the beginning, I thought he was just concerned about the condo he’s planning to buy and was waiting for my update. I was tasked to take care of the negotiations with the broker. I did update him. Well, that’s another story.
Afterwards, *maybe 30 minutes after* he was looking for me again. He took a seat near the computer table over a cup of tea. While me and A on the sofa busy with our Macbooks. Then he started talking again. This time, it was intense and very personal. He blurted out all what’s inside him --- His happiness, frustrations, worries, hopes, plans and feelings towards us. Things I never thought he’d tell me. I was in absolute shock! --- Am I the right person to hear all these? Why am I here without X? Honestly, I didn’t know how to handle the situation. I did the safest thing to do --- listen.
DP is a type of person who is tough, reserved, moody, deep and everybody tends to be aloof on him even his sons and daughter. We see him like a “weather”, always changing, very unpredictable. Reason why I always feel uneasy and distant (if I may call it that way) talking to him. People tend to misinterpret him.
Today changed everything.
I realized that he is a typical father like everyone else who lives and works hard for his family and loved ones, will do anything and everything to make them happy even to the point of sacrificing his own interests. He simply wants the best for his family. I’m lucky to discover that soft side of DP. I was actually touched. I really can’t help but shed tears on the things he is sharing with me and the reasons why he decided to impart these with me.
The way I see him, he seems to be a little stressed due to too much worrying about his family specially his children. He wanted to see his two sons be stable before he losses his breath. Morbid as it is but that is a reality. I feel for him and I feel for his family because I (we) lost my (our) Daddy long time ago and it was so sudden. So, I totally understand where is he coming from. He wanted everyone to be prepared and can stand on their own even without his presence. So he can go in peace. Seriously, this gave me goosebumps! Reality bites. I pray to God to give him loooooog life so we can spend more time with him.
He was emotional and vocal with his feelings. I can't remember how many times he said he loves us very much. He also said very nice words and compliments about me. Wow! *Me and A were controlling our tears, hahaha* It’s like my Daddy reincarnated in him and is in front of me talking. Incredible. Unexplainable.
He mentioned about the W thing. I was stunned. He said he couldn’t wait any longer. He’s so eager to know our plans (which in fact, no concrete one yet and tends to be our least priority). Somehow I felt he wanted to align his plans with ours because that event would create a big change on all of us (including them, of course). The very exact thing my Mommy told me.
It’s hard to narrate our entire conversation here in detail because we have discussed a lot! Some of them, I want to keep to myself (and X).
As I write this, my heart is still beating fast. Today is unforgettable. I would like to think that Daddy sent an angel and touched DP’s heart and mind which made this day happen.
Puzzle pieces forming together in front of my face. Whoa!
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